This is something I wrote last year as the date of my birthday approached. This year will be my 2nd birthday without my mom. She always called very early on every birthday morning of my adult life to sing "Happy Birthday To You". This year will be my 8th birthday without my step-daughter, which is an unresolved issue that could be best described as unbearable. Despite having the birthday blues, I am very thankful for being able to arrive to my 48th year, since several friends and family members never saw their 48th year of life. I am conscience of the fact of how lucky I am to have three of those original sixteen family members still with me: my Dad, my uncle Dale and my cousin Carol. I am very thankful for all family and friends that have in my life and for whatever the future holds in store for us all.
Happy Birthday to me.....
On Friday Oct. 12, 2007, I'll be 47 yrs.old and wanted to share some thoughts with all of you....
My 46th year has been a tough one.... starting in January 2007 when my mother died unexpectedly, then followed by five more deaths in the family within less than six months.
It occurred to me that at the very moment you are born, who you are is who you belong to, who your people are = your family....
At 1:44 a.m. on Oct.12, 1960, when I was born,
I had two great-grandmothers, one great-grandfather, two grandmothers, two grandfathers, one mother, one father, two uncles, two aunts and three first cousins.....By age 46, of those 16 people with whom I started out with in this world, only 3 are still living...thirteen members of my immediate family are gone forever.
When I was a teenager, all I wanted was to turn 18 years old and move away from my hometown and my family.... I've joked for years that I wanted to be born into a family like the The Waltons (TV show), instead I got a family like the Simpsons.
I realize, that no matter how difficult your family is, that they are still family.... and NO ONE is guaranteed another tomorrow no matter what your age is.
Honor those who are important to you, take time for them, don't leave anything left unsaid, live your life to the fullest, live each day as if it were your last, don't ever give up on your dreams and when we reach the end of the trail, may we all have as few regrets as possible !!!
(and to those younger than me,,,,take my word for it....time flies, its wasn't so very long ago that I thought that someone 47 years old was older than dirt, and now I'm going to be 47 yrs old and I now realize dirt is much older than I originally thought)
2 comments:
Happy Happy Birthday!
Belated Happy Birthday. Pireni, my Gypsy Dog had her pups for your birthday!
By rights I should have died 2 1/2 months before my 21st birthday, but here I am at 45 1/2, still going strong despite murderous husband & puc goat. I don't go out of my way to celebrate my birthday as I don't want it over commercialised, but sometimes I think it would be pleasant to do something mad on the day ~ I remember a dear friend celebrating my 40th by taking me to his wood to just be in the trees & then making me a rice pudding & using chile powder instead of nutmeg in it by mistake!
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